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in secret prayer.
" 6th.-Praise the Lord for another Christian Sabbath! I found it good to join in the worship of God.
“gth.—We walked the deck, and sang some of our sweet hymns, Truly my mind was raised to that world of spirits, whither we are fast hastening. May the Lord prepare us for a place near His throne, even among the first ranks of His cross-bearers ! “9th.- I this day enjoyed an opportunity of spending some time
Blessed be the name of my Heavenly Father, I feel the possession of religion to be of more value than all the world can give. May He give me all the fulness of love I am capable of enjoying in this life, as a preparation for the great work to which He has called me,-to lead perishing sinners to the Saviour.
“ 13th.-Isle of Wight. This has indeed been one of the days of the Son of man.' The sacrament of the Lord's Supper was administered in the evening after preaching. Mr. Burrows and my husband assisted in the holy solemnity. The Lord was present in the power of His Spirit. I believe it has been the best Sabbath I have spent since we left Scotland. Surely the Lord in mercy has refreshed us, that we may serve Him, in the strength of such rich food, perhaps many days. We know not whether we shall enjoy such another Sabbath on this side eternity.
“14th.–Visited the graves of The Dairyman's Daughter' and little Jane, then the cottage of the Dairy man, where his son now lives, - scenes I never expected to see. I was highly gratified, and, I trust, profited.
“ 27th.--Early this morning we left the Isle of Wight, followed by the prayers of many for our safety and success. Such kindness as has been shown to us here I never before experienced. All the friends vied with each other who should pay us most attention; and they loaded us with many tokens of their affection, which will remind us of them in a distant land. Blessed be God, true religion is the same in all places. My soul was very much alive while among this people, enjoying the ordinances of God's house.
" December 11th.-Very sea-sick for two weeks. I truly feel the value of the little religion I have. It enabled me in the midst of the fiercest gales that blew to say, 'Thy will be done!' I felt a willing ness to perish in the midst of the Atlantic, if the glory of God might thereby be promoted. At the same time, I had perfect confidence ir His power to save me, if the kingdom of His grace could be extender by my life being spared. May He give me an increase of love, to prepare me for doing His will; and an increase of humility, to fit me for suffering it.
“ 25th.—Mr. Burrows read prayers, and my husband preacher from 2 Cor. viii. 9 I felt it good to wait upon God, although or
the mighty waters. How many tens of thousands were similarly engaged on land!
* 26th. I finished reading the Memoirs of David Brainerd and Henry Martyn. When I think of their holiness, zeal, self-denial, and deaddess to the world, in the midst of trials and persecutions, I feel ashamed of myself, and especially of my coldness in the Missionary cause. May the Lord give each of us now entering upon this great work a richer baptism of His Holy Spirit! May He spare our lives, and make us abundantly useful!
“ 27th.— Reflecting how many miles we are from home, and how improbable it is that we shall see all our friends again in this world, I am led to earnest prayer that we may all be made meet to be partakers of eternal glory.
“ 28th.–Near the close of another year. Alas! how little have I done this year for God. How little of the mind of Christ do I possess, in comparison with that fulness treasured up in Him for all who earnestly seek to enjoy it. Lord, help me to press after it with greater diligence!
“ 29th.-I felt poorly this morning, yet found it good to wait on God in earnest prayer, and in reading and hearing His word. May I never be ashamed of Him who loved me and gave Himself for me, and who by His grace enabled me to give up country and friends in hope of being made useful to the souls of my perishing fellow-sinners. Blessed be God for the prospect of spending an eternity of happiness in the unclouded vision of the Lamb!
“31st.-The last day of this year; perhaps the last year of my life; but the will of the Lord be done. It has been to me the most important year of my earthly course. I have been united to one who has been solemnly set apart to the work of the ministry, and who, I trust, will be spared and made a blessing. Thank God, I have seen His hand in all the way through which I have been led; and I cannot doubt that it is His will that I should be in my present position. I feel no regret at having left all for Christ's sake. I do not wish to be idle, but useful in my day and generation ; and, praise the Lord, I am still a believer in that precious doctrine, which for many years has been a comfort to my mind, -the doctrine of a particular providence, numbering even the hairs of our heads.'
" Finished reading the Memoirs of Harriet Newell. I find that many of her views and feelings concerning Missionary life coincide exactly with my own. Lord, make me more holy. Amen!
* 1832. January 1st.–Service on deck. Mr. Burrows preached on 1 Peter iv. 8. How solemn the thought that, ere this year closes, some of us may be in eternity!
« We have just passed the place where five of our missionaries, with their wives and children, perished in the 'Maria' mail-boat, in 1826. Yet we are preserved! After service Mr. Burrows, my dear husband, and myself joined in singing the covenant bymns, having no other means of unitedly dedicating ourselves afresh to the service of our covenant-keeping God. Lord, help us to keep in mind our obligations, and give us grace to keep our vows !”
In the state of mind indicated by these extracts from her journal, she entered upon the Mission-field. Nearly five years later she writes,
“August 28th, 1836. Port Antonio. Sabbath evening.-I again record the dealings of God with me after a silence of nearly five years, during which goodness and mercy liave followed me. To the glory of Divine grace, 'I am what I am.' Hitherto the Lord hath helped me. This day I set out afresh to seek a deeper work of grace in my soul, that in the strength of God I may serve Him better than I have done. As my Heavenly Father has lately helped me in the trying hour, may He help me to live more for eternity; may all I fay and do tend to the advancement of the Redeemer's kingdom ; and may the little one lent us for a season, with the other two, be stamped with His own seal, and be His in time and eternity ! Amen.
“ September 11th. I lament that I love the Lord so little, and glorify Him so imperfectly by active obedience. My privileges are very great, and so is my responsibility. May He quicken my soul, which is so prone to cleave to the dust! O for a fresh baptism of His Spirit !
“Octobar 23d.-In taking a view of the dealings of God with me during the last eighteen years, I am overwhelmed with the thought of His sparing mercy and forgiving love. He has kept me and blessed me, made my cup to run over with temporal mercies, and has granted me the highest spiritual privileges. I come afresh to the atonement of Christ.......I desire to die daily to this world, and to live in expectation of future glory.
“September 30, 1837.—Many around us have sickened and died, while, with my dear husband and children, I am spared."
The passages just quoted shed light on her views and feelings after being engaged in the work of a missionary's wife several years. As the cares of her station multiplied, she appears to have ceased to record her religious experience ; but she continued to adorn her profession, as a follower of the Saviour, under every change that marked her path during the twelve years she was in Jamaica. She saw the evils of slavery; witnessed its death-struggle ; and beheld with joy the happy day when eight hundred thousand sons and daughters of Africa were proclaimed free subjects of the British Crown. When her children sickened and died, and when medical men urged her to address parting words to her husband, as in three hours she would probably be a widow, she silently cast herself at the foot of the Cross, and through tears told her sorrow; yet not a word of complaint escaped her lips. When she herself was laid prostrate by fever, and her mind wandered, a calm confidence in the Divine care sustained her, and influenced all she said.
In the several spheres to which her husband was appointed, after returning to England, she pursued the same consistent course. She nerer desired any particular Circuit, and never complained of any appointment. With remarkable prudence she abstained from interfering in Circuit arrangements, or betraying party feeling. During a painful season of agitation, she was loyal to Methodism; and her love for its doctrines and discipline was only confirmed by the attempts which were made to injure and uproot it. She was intensely attached to the church of her choice, wbile she cherished the most cordial affection towards all true disciples of the Saviour, to whatever section of the church universal they might belong.
In her habits she was orderly. She had a place for everything; and long after she was laid aside by affliction, she knew where everything could be found, unless some one had interfered with her arrangements. Punctuality, also, marked all her engagements. In the exactness of her domestic movements this was daily visible. If about to travel, there was no hurrying to catch a train or a steamer ; all was prepared at least balf-an-hour beforehand : she kept no one waiting for her. No minister of the Gospel was ever grieved, no eongregation disturbed, by her entering the house of God after the service had commenced. Her class-leaders, while she was in health, had never to mark her as an absentee, or wait for her as a late comer. She felt that without punctuality time could not be saved, or friends pleased, or good temper preserved. Her management of her household affairs was characterized by economy, cleanliness, and comfort. She esteemed it an imperative duty to do all things "Cecently and in order.” As a mother, the temporal and eternal interests of her children lay near her heart. Several times a day did she plead for them at the throne of grace. While they were young, she seldom permitted them to be out of her sight more than a few Lours together, whoever might have the care of them. Her fondness for them was guided by prudence and the fear of God. About a week before her death, she addressed one of her sons, who then saw her alive for the last time, in these words: “Give your heart to Christ, or you will never enter heaven; and in the day of judginent I shall be a witness against you.” Her breathing became difficult, and she could only add, "I have no strength to say more; farewell." LO
As a wife, she was ever regarded by her husband as a rare gift
which a kind Providence had bestowed on him. A happier union has rarely or never been met with. Her excellecces were so many, that her infirmities occasioned no annoyance; and now that she is where “they neither marry nor are given in marriage,” her memory is very precious to him. Her unmurmuring patience under deep and long-continued suffering was rery remarkable. Friends bave often observed respecting her, “ We visit Mrs. Samuel to witness the grace of God in her. Such perfect submission to the Divine will, such humility, patience, and even cheerful thankfulness under sufferings so severe we never saw.” During the last three or four months of her life, those sufferings became almost overwhelm.ing. Night and day she required attention ; and, as her strength gave way, she frequently begged her husband to pray that the Saviour would clothe her in the wedding garment, and take ber home, if consistent with His will. She constantly spoke of dying as "going home,” and often repeated portions of hymns, such as, “For ever here my rest shall be ;” and “Rock of Ages, clest for me." She went through this last beautiful hymn with deep feeling, when scarcely able to articulate.
Before undergoing a severe surgical operation, she said to her husband, “ If I die under it, some good end will be answered;" and during the trial she never opened her lips, or even moved. All the while her mind was fixed on a passage in the Psalms,-" The angel of the Lord encampeth round about them that fear Him, and delivereth them.”
On one occasion, during severe paroxysms of pain, she said, “ It is sin that has done this.”...... · What could I do without Christ in a time like this?"......" How gladly would I go, and yet what clinging to this suffering life !...... What pleasure I once took in attending to my household affairs ! Lut now I feel as if I had no interest in anything in this world; all concern about earthly matters is gone." As she could seldom sleep in the night, she was frequent in supplication and in repeating hymns. With lively and joyous hope, chastened by lowly submission, she looked forward to her departure ; and for many weeks before she died, her state of mind was that which, on July 1st, 1862, she expressed to a friend :-“I am ready to go home; I am just waiting to be called." Though her thoughts occasionally seemed to wander, yet to the last she was generally sensible. Only a few minutes before her death, a friend said, “The Lord be with you and strengthen you." She replied, with her expiring breath, “Amen!” In the evening of July 5th, 1862, sho quietly fell asleep in Jesus.
Many testimonies to her Christian worth were addressed to her husband by ministers and others who had long and intimately known her; but they need not be cited here. Her friends on every hand