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balanced, and the mind comes to gain just the strength that is wanted. Hope administers to the wanderer under all his troubles. Her taper, burning to the last hour of life's pilgrimage, mixes up with the darkest of his feelings a gleam, which ever keeps despair from the bornedown spirit-which cheers and supports him in all his wanderings.

These, however, are only the troubles of the mind; and though they are quite enough, yet, as they generally wear off, or at least lose much of their poignancy, as soon as the parting is fairly past, and even while they last are pleasing though painful, if there were no others, there would not be much cause for complaint. But there are also troubles of the body, as well as the mind, to be endured; and these, unfortunately, are all pain, without the least intermixture of pleasure. Just as we are getting over the sorrow of parting-just as our spirits are on the move to their wonted level, and we are beginning to promise ourselves something like enjoyment and cheerfulness again, there comes

upon us a sickness, a most deadly sickness, which, at once, sinks the spirits still lower than before, and reduces the body still lower than the spirits, and most cruelly puts an end to every hope and prospect of comfort.

During the whole of Wednesday, the day we left the Downs, the wind continued fair and moderate, and there was no appearance of complaint amongst us. On Thursday, the weather was still fine, and for that day also, I may say we were all well enough. Towards evening, indeed, some felt a little lightness of head, and rather a dimunition of appetite, but they did not think it a matter of much importance, and imagined a sleep would put all to rights. In the course of the night, however, the breeze increased considerably, and the swell of the sea, and the motion of the ship along with it, and those who in the evening had their spirits tolerably well up, had them miserably enough depressed in the morning; those who in the evening were promising themselves an early start, found, when the morning came, they had neither

inclination nor ability to get upon their legs. I felt, I believe, about as uncomfortable as any of them, but I resolved to make a bold push, and get up to see what was going on above. So out of bed I got with some difficulty, and after managing, with more, to get on my clothes, I made my way to the deck, just as breakfast was ready. At the call to breakfast, I went in, although I had little inclination for the meal, to take my seat at table along with the rest; but I found few others there; few, out of our number, had made their appearance, and even these few, as soon as the eating articles were produced, and the caterer had commenced sending them round, got up and made their exit rather hurriedly. I followed very soon, for I found things far from being right, and, like the others, took the way to my cot, into which I tumbled in a most pitiable condition.

All Friday it continued to blow, and all that day, I and many others, were, as we supposed, in a state of greater misery than ever mortal was in before. The moment we raised our head from

the pillow, such horrible sensations ensued, that we were glad instantly to get it down again. Some who fought against their feelings, and got out of bed, had scarcely reached the floor, when a tumble of the vessel sent them tumbling to the other side of their cabin; and before they had time to recover themselves another roll would send them as quickly and roughly back again; and thus tumbled and bumped about, they were glad to get into their softer and safer birth again. Others who got the length of beginning to dress, in the attempt to draw on a stocking, or in any other act which occupied both hands, and put the body on rather a ticklish balance, were thrown down with such violence, that for some days afterwards they had cause to remember it. And to increase the misfortune, the same lurch that upset the man, generally upset along with him, some of the cabin furniture, and not only did he run the risk of sustaining an injury from the fall, but it was a wonder, indeed, if he did not also get a salute from a trunk, or a dressing-box, or a basin, or something or other rather too ponder

ous in its nature. And some, after managing to get themselves wholly equipped, became all at once so intolerably ill, that they were absolutely obliged instantly to tumble into bed again, clothes and all. And what added to our distress, in all our troubles, there was no one pitied us. When the spirit is sunk, from whatever cause, the voice of sympathy can do much to restore it. When the hand of disease is upon us, how enfeebled is its grasp, if the soothing attentions-the cheering consolations of kind friends, are aiding us! Yet, although we imagined our situation just one calculated to excite the greatest commiseration, it drew forth no pity-it seemed not to be viewed thus by any one else. From the tried sailor, a laugh or a swear was all the comfort we could get. And even those who were as young in the life as ourselves, but who luckily had escaped the terrible malady, seemed also to be without any feeling of sympathy; for though they came occasionally to visit us in our distress, they neither shewed that anxiety, nor gave that condolence, which we, judging from our feelings, thought we

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