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assumed the milder cast of gentle intreaty. A thousand objections fluttered in my mind! but the abbess was handsome! —the demon desire predominated, and in an unguarded moment I yielded to her embraces.

Returned to the monastery, I began to reflect on what I had done. Remorse was at first predominant, but a narrower inspection terminated in a favourable construction of my conduct, and evinced how true it is, that “ there is nothing to which the human mind accustoms itself with more facility than apologizing to itself for its own infirmities, and giving to its errors the outside appearance of virtue." But virtue and infirmity are mere relative terms, and it is not always proper to measure the actions of men by moral rule, whose essence is frequently at variance with the laws of nature. These are the prototype, and, would we take the trouble, we should discover many an action to result from the compulsion of phy. sical necessity, while austere morality inflicts a brand upon the agent, who was the mere passive instrument of a power over which he had no control. The love of nature embraces every code of moral law that has been, that is, and that will be. These are human, and whatever is the invention of man is obnoxious to instability, and perpetual change. They are augmented, diminished, lost, not at the caprice of men, as the ignoarnt grossly presume, but in conformity to the unerring principles of physics. Do we say that a whirlwind is produced by human means? Surely no! Do we say that the revolution of France was occasioned by human invention? Some are hardy enough to believe it, but it is a palpable ab

surdity. Man was merely the medium, physical necessity the immediate cause of a change of government in that country.

“ If plagues or earthquakes break not heaven's design, “Why then a Borgia or a Cataline ?”

We are not proof against impressions, and “ every act of the will is invariably in proportion to the impression on our senses.” The following day I repaired to the convent at the usual hour; the same scene is repeated. The day after witnesses the like. With the wants and desires incident to man, every obstacle was laid aside for the indulgence of my passion. For a while it was confined to the abbess; but that habit which reconciled all objections, stimulated novelty, which in its turn generated satiety. The abbess soon perceived my indifference, taxed me with ingratitude, and finding I had become disgusted with her person, mark the revenge she meditated.

“ Ungrateful, inconsiderate man! why have you conceived an aversion for a woman that adored you ! Why have you trilled with her affection ? Affection that has given place to hatred !-Adoration in whose place the blackest malignity has succeeded. Listen to the revenge I nourish, to the fate that awaits you. But first let me introduce to you the character of her you dared to slight.

Married to an husband by compulsion, I loved him only for his riches, complying with the wishes of my family, I sacrificed my own. To make amends I favoured intrigue. Among the number of my gallants was your friend Mr. Westcote. Long I fancied I was beloved by him, before I iscovered my error. He was the first I loved. From him I first drew the

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poisonous seeds of jealousy. Heavens! what were the tortures I endured when he openly avowed his preference to Mrs. Edwards ! My haughty spirit was ungovernable. My unhappiness arose with the sun : sleep fled from my pillow.-One ray of hope was left, and I spurned at being overcome. It was a cruel alternative, but jealousy knew no bounds, and readily I grasped at the only remaining effort.

I " Don Alchantara, the son of the grand inquisitor, had made advances to me, but had been hitherto rejected. I now encouraged him, and under the mask of love, he was silly enough to embark in my cause. It was contrived that he should retire to a distant province while I carefully circulated a rumour of his death, and should lodge an information against my brother and Eliza as his murderers. Presuming upon the unbounded love of my sister for her husband, I was persuaded she would act as she did. It was to wean the affection of Mr. Westcote from Mrs Edwards, which was doubtful ; to do that effectually, I conceived my plan should be to prove to him her infidelity. The moment the officials secured my brother and her, it had the desired effect; all were satisfied of the truth of an elopement. My sister renounced society, and the world. Mr. Westcote owned his belief of fact. Now positive that every obstacle was removed, in the smallest to impede my conquest, judge my astonishment, when he peremptorily refused to enter into my measures, and when I reminded him of the incontinency of Mrs. Edwards, and how undeserving she was longer to occupy a place in his thoughts, his behaviour was that of a maniac. He had the audacity not only to upbraid me to my face, but solemnly

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protested that henceforward he should regard me in no other light than an enemy to his happiness. My pride thus humbled, I burst from him, determined that he should never again behold his Eliza, and I threw myself into the arms of young Huesco.

“I awaited the commencement of the trial with much impatience, that I might witness the enlargement of my brother, and the condemnation of Mrs. Edwards. But for you, Francisco! my revenge had been complete ! You defeated every thing. By you was I taken in my own snare, and art thou again to persecute me! My passion for Mr.Westcote has long subsided, and I have even imagined my bosom dead to love. I have erred in this. And is it again to be misplaced ! and still without the sweet consolation of Revenge No! inhuman!"

An horrid grin now overspread her countenance, and seizing me by the arm, she uttered a loud and piercing scream while she sunk upon the floor, artfully contriving that I should fall exactly as she wished. The convent was alarmed, and in a moment the dormitory was filled by the sisterhood. I was secured, and thrown into the dungeon of the inquisition ; and this morning condemned to die for an attempt upon the virtue of the immaculate abbess of St. Clare! Summoned before the tribunal, not of British justice; tried, not by a fair and impartial jury of twelve ho. nest upright peers, but condemned unheard by a tribunal whose end and aim is in violation of liberty and of justice. The voice of hùmanity is ever ready to cry out against cruelty like this !-Yes! Charles, how incapable were you of stemming the tears you are now shedding. But again thou weepest !-How

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childish |--My fate is now determined, and in the certainty of that my composure quickens !_“Whatever is inevitable, to a superior mind carries no terror."

In my last moments I cannot accuse myself at any time of having acted wrongly. There is, at least, a satisfaction in being a Necessitarian. I am one from principle; and that Intelligence, be it denominated God! Providence! Alas! or any other name ; that Intelligence, I say, which is the soul of the universe, knows that my mind has always been open to conviction, that I have ever invited discussion. The creed too of the Necessitarian is not easily to be confuted ; but my ears have never been shut against the objections of its opponents. I own I cannot conquer the ideas which incest presents: I am no free agent; and I can descend to say that I am the sport of impressions. Whatever is, was intended, and I must regard that event as the will of Heaven! In a less certainty of my fate, I should have received the sacrament, that my conduct might appear to correspond with my recent elevated situation ; but I will no longer play a solemn farce. My refusal has occasioned a change in my sentence. In place of being burnt, as was first ordered, I am doomed to the gallows, in order that my body may be hung in chains. O! miserable weakness! As if the mere hinderance of my bones from dissolving peaceably in the earth, could prolong my suffering! A good example in society is every thing : but an example that acts inversely to the natural feelings and sentiments of man, is an example lame indeed! The morning fast approaches, and with it the char

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