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CHAPTER XXXII.

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"And I let him go," was her first there could be no more happiness thought, “ without taking the um- for her; she must in any case be brella, and he will have to sit in miserable. And yet he wanted to the train all the way to town, continue his kindness to her and drenched to the skin! So delicate her brother. That, of course, was as his chest is too! Well might impossible. She could not accept he call me selfish ;” and even in any further favour from him, not her distress Hilda could not help even Arthur's account. But smiling at the turn her thoughts will it be right to refuse it for the had taken. But soon there came child ? Is Arthur, too, to be sacriback in all its bitterness the recollec- ficed for me? Robert and Arthur tion of what had passed. She had —both to be sacrificed to my parted for ever from her one true scruples! He says his life will friend,-her faithful, devoted, un- have been shipwrecked by my-reselfish lover, who had sacrificed fusal; his fortunes have been alwealth, and habits and pursuits, ready. In any case the greater and cherished aims, all for her. sacrifice

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his side. Poor And she would give him nothing Robert! How can I

prove my in return ! And she went over and gratitude and devotion! He would over again the particulars of the not respect me any longer, of course, long meeting. Of course she had if I do what he asks, although he done right. But she could now thinks otherwise now. I should measure the full extent of what it be degraded in his eyes as well as had cost her. Yet' after all, what in my own, and he would soon was the loss of happiness to her come to feel this himself. But compared with his loss? She had then this would be all the greater won his heart and wrecked his sacrifice. And is it not the woman's fortunes. If she had not crossed part to sacrifice herself for those his path, this blight would not have she loves? Have not I been doing fallen on him. Then she thought this ever since I came home? Has what a noble nature her lover pos- not my self-respect been lowered sessed, although he was unreason- already, through no fault of my able in this one respect-on the own? It will be merely one step mixture of simplicity and shrewd- lower from what I used to be. How ness in his character; his playful changed I must be already! Poor ways and his serious aims; his Robert! And this, he says, would true politeness, and, better still, his make him happy. Am I truly as generous, sympathetic heart. He heartless and selfish as he says ! had been the benefactor of her In self-communings and retrofamily, their saviour from want. spections of this sort she passed He had lifted one brother out of the sleepless night, to get up hagthe mire and set him on a clean gard and weary in the morning. way; the other he would preserve “If I go on changing at this rate,' from going astray, and bring up to thought the poor girl, smiling an honest and happy life. Of her sadly, as she looked at herself in he asked only one thing in return, the glass, “ Robert would not care and that she would not give him. to press his suit for long. Poor She would shipwreck his happiness Robert! he, too, looked changed. to save her own. No, not her own; He was not like himself to speak The party

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so harshly—and I am the cause. gate, “ you would not like to leave He has done everything for me and Miss Pasco, who is so kind to you, mine, and I do nothing for him. and to go back to school at Slaye ?" I must ruin him, or let myself be Arthur did not answer in words, ruined."

but his face changed, and he gripped

his sister's hand convulsively, by That afternoon Hilda paid a visit way of answer. to Miss Pasco's school. The boys “But suppose, Arthur dear, that were gone out with the governesses I could not find the money to go on and the sergeant to play cricket in paying for you here, without being the park, the servant said—Miss dishonest ?” Pasco was at home; but Hilda, “Do you pay for my schooling ?" shrinking from a meeting with her, he asked, looking up inquiringly at left word that she would call again her. “Miss Pasco said the gentlelater, and went off in search of man who brought me here paid for Arthur.

me, and that it was evident he was found, the noise made by the little very sweet on somebody. I heard fellows being a ready guide to the Miss Pasco tell Miss Palmer so. spot where they were assembled. Who is he sweet upon? Miss All were in high spirits, and all Pasco said she was a very lucky talking together at the top of their girl. What girl did she mean? shrill voices. A game of cricket pursued Arthur, innocently. was going on under the superin- “Yes, dear. It is quite true tendence of the sergeant, but the that the gentleman pays for your fielders were not very steady, and schooling now.

He saw that you the younger children were playing were unhappy at Mr. Brake's, and apart, near to where the two gov- so, being very kind and nobleernesses were sitting at needlework hearted, he took you away and on a bench. Hilda was close upon brought you here where you are Arthur before he saw her. His so happy and well cared for. But delight at her coming was as great supposing, Arthur dear, that your as on the occasion of her first visit staying here required that I should to Slaye. But there was no shed- do something very wrong-someding of tears now-no pent-up feel- thing that would make respectable ings now burst out at the sight of persons like Miss Pasco think ill of the dear sister. Arthur was full me, and turn away from me; you of talk about the school and his would not wish to stay here if you school-fellows, and Miss Pasco, and had to be ashamed of your sister, Miss Playfair, and Miss Palmer, would you, dear ?" and, his first shyness having worn Arthur looked at her with a off, was full of childish praise about frightened air, her manner was so everything connected with the serious. “ Are you going to take place. And Hilda, with a keen me back to Mr. Brake's again ?” he recollection of the dismal appear asked, and burst into tears. ance the little fellow had presented Hilda had some ado in getting at his last school, watched his happy him to stop crying. The terror of face with mingled feelings of pride what he had 'undergone at Slaye and self-abasement.

was still fresh on him, and it reThe two had been taking a walk quired repeated assurances from his together, and were now approach- sister that he should not be taken ing the house. “So, Arthur, dear," there again before he was said his sister, stopping before the forted.

sure.

“You would not forgive poor good schooling, and grow up wise, Hilda, then, Arthur, if she were to and good, and clever? You will be the means of your going away promise to love her still, won't you, from this nice school again ?" and not to look coldly on her or

“I should like to go home with forsake her ?” you still better than being here, of The child made no answer in course," replied the child; “but words. He could not understand the holidays will be here very his sister's mood, that she, to whom soon."

he was accustomed to look up as “But I may not have a home to the embodiment of all that was take you to. Papa has gone away, good, and kind, and powerful, should and his coming back is uncertain; be asking his pardon and depreand I don't think he will be able cating his scorn. All he could to have you with him when he does understand was that she was going come back; and I may not be able away now, and that perhaps he to keep up the house · by myself. would be left at school for the But Miss Pasco will make you very holidays; and that she was unlike happy if you should have to stay her usual self, and unhappy about for the holidays, I am She something His sister's tearful tells me she has three or four little eyes, too, were contagious: he lifted boys from India, who spend all up his voice and wept as Hilda, their holidays with her. It will be giving him one more embrace, rose very nice having some other boys from her knees, and bidding him to play with, won't it? At home, tell Miss Pasco that she would not you know, you have no compan- be able to return to call on her ions."

as she had promised, opened the Arthur did not dissent from garden-gate for him to enter and these propositions, but his face tes- passed quickly away. tified to the higher appreciation he set on life at home, even without Next day, as Clifford was sitting playmates of his own age.

disconsolate in his study after “And now good-bye, dear,” con- breakfast, among the letters brought tinued his sister, stooping down to in to him from one of the morning embrace him. And, Arthur dar- deliveries was a small one addressed ling, if, by-and-by, when you grow in the well-known handwriting. It up to be a man, you should hear contained merely these words :people say

sister was not as good as you thought her to be, " Come back, and you shall no will you promise to remember that longer have cause to reproach me what she did wrong was done partly with being hard and selfish. for your sake, that you might get

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A FRENCH LADY AND HER FRIENDS.

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A MELANCHOLY

who is always sure to raise plenty raised in France, “Les salons se game; and this, a friend of ours meurent-les salons sont morts ;" has said or written, ever seems the and as with their decay “l'esprit most appropriate definition of a s'en va,” as with them many of good maitresse de maison. For the the pleasant ways of the sociable hostess should not herself shine French monde' must disappear, so brilliantly as to put out any regrets are loud and deep over lesser lights surrounding her, her their loss; and the few that are task and pleasure being to show still left are spoken of tenderly, them off according to their respecreverently almost, as we speak with tive powers and merits; moreover, bated breath of one expiring 'midst she should be endowed with a gift gracious and loving memories. of foresight and prophetic judg

A little book,* published in the ment, enabling her early to discern beginning of the year, gives the the qualities, and to cultivate the simple and unaffected description friendship, of such celebrities as of the elements of one of those those who illumined Madame Jaucharming sanctuaries of the old bert's circle, and who gave her, till “esprit gaulois” of the “art de their life's close, the homage “ d'un causer,” -one of the last retreats culte passionnément amical.” where literature, poetry, music, Years have now passed since the painting—where, in a word, talent palmy days of Madame Jaubert's of every kind flourished under salon; and most of those who met the sympathetic reign and rule of there, and whose delicate réparties a miniature queen, known to her and intimate communings have subjects under various friendly ap- been discriminatingly confided to pellations, such as “La Fée" to us in the “Souvenirs," have suc. some, to Musset as “ La Marraine,” cessively dropped off-called by and to the

the general publicas death to meet the judgment of Madame Jaubert, the wife of a posterity; whilst she-born almost Conseiller à la Cour de Cassation. on the threshold of this century

The small—very small—fair, and remains to tell us what manner of fragile hostess who gathered around men these were who warmed it her, in closest intimacy, such men with the fire of their eloquence, as Heine, Musset, Delacroix, Ber- charmed it with the power of their ryer, Rossini, Bellini, and Mario, melodies, or ravished it with the possessed those special and mag- magic of their verse,-she remains ! netic qualities of attractiveness and and we who have the privilege of charm which, more than beauty and knowing her, fully endorse the powerful intellect, are needed to descriptive terms in which Paul wield the sceptre of government in de Musset wrote of her some few a salon.

years ago only, “ Toujours pétillante The Chevalier d'Aydié compared d'entrain d'esprit et d'originalitéMadame du Deffand's esprit to les années ne l'ont pas éteinte.” the nature of a well-trained dog Age and infirmities have respect

* Souvenirs de Mme. C. Jaubert. Paris, 1881: Hetzel.' Went through three editions in as many days.

ed the little “Marraine :" the “bel ryer cared solely for women's comange aux yeux noirs” of De Musset's panionship—his very manner of verses “À Ninon,”— those black listening to them inspired them eyes that contrasted so piquantly with all necessary esprit; and he with her fair hair, are still bright was, in this respect, the living and sparkling; her face is still proof that an expert speaker can fresh and smiling. Years have in elicit from his partner in conversano wise dulled her brightness or tion, as much as a great artist from her cheeriness; she has even kept the poorest instrument. Open to her whole delightful freshness of the seduction of the most opposite interest in the lives and doings of charms, he was singularly liable to others-doubtless ever one of the those amours fractionnés which most winning qualities of this made him so pleasant when stimsprightly little hostess.

ulated and drawn out by the Most of all, her charm of accueil presence of the loved one." She and the vivacity of her conver- also relates an amusing opinion sation, are unchanged ; and these on the host and his mil e tre exattract to her still all who are fa- pressed by one of the Augerville voured by being permitted to enjoy intimes, who, being rather put out her well-told reminiscences : so that at the number of beauties worshipearly and late her salon is full of ping at the great man's shrine, mainmen and women of note, who gather tained Berryer's inferiority as a lover round her to listen, and store up as compared with the perfection of interesting and valuable memories. his sentiments de mezzo caractère.

These “ Souvenirs” open by plac- He went on to show the superioring Berryer before us in the frame ity of Mirabeau in similar circumof his country-seat,

* and in the stances, and upheld this opinion laisser aller of the intimacies that notwithstanding the indignant prohe there gathered round him. Our test of the whole feminine assemauthor scarcely condescends to bled element—"for love," said this paint the portrait of the great critic, “is a devouring fire, concenorator, as being too well known to trated and exclusive. Believe me, the general public—the man with if Berryer had not muddled away the powerful frame, fine head, the his gold in small change, few sonorous and vibrating tones that amongst the best of women might lent so much force to the political boast having resisted the entrainespeaker. She prefers delineating ment of such penetrating and pasthe winning host, known but to a sionate eloquence." Madame Jauchosen few, with his special gift bert's comment on this is, “that for obtaining confidences without there was much apparent justice in ever betraying his own, who was this remark; but," she shrewdly secretive by nature, though in no adds, “how large is the unknown way mysterious, and who

gave share in the heart and life even of ample compensation for what he those with whom we are supposed abstained from telling, by the rich to be most thoroughly acquainted !” stores he so generously drew from Another trait of Berryer's character his marvellously stocked memory. that she dwells on was his genial

The influence of woman played adaptation to the rôle of country no inconsiderable part in Berryer's gentleman and host at his welllife. Madame Jaubert says: “Ber- beloved Augerville, where Madame

* Augerville, near Paris.

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