concerned about religion. My heart then began to be a little encouraged: Went and preached, firit to the Irish, and then to the Indians: And in the evening, was a little comforted; my foul feemed to reft on God, and take courage. O that the Lord would be my fupport and comforter in an evil world.

Monday, May 14.-Was very bufy in fome neceffary Audies. Felt myfelf very loofe from all the world; All appeared vanity and vexation of fpirit. Seemed fomething lonefome and difconfolate, as if I was banifhed from all mankind, and bereaved of all that is called pleasure in the world: But appeared to myfelf fo vile and unworthy, it feemed fitter for me to be here than any where.

[He continued much in the fame frame the three next days. J

Friday, May 18.-Felt again fomething of the fweet fpirit of religion; and my foul feemed to confide in God, that he would never leave me. But often faw myself fo mean a creature, that I knew not how to think of preaching. O that I could always live to and upon God!

Saturday, May 19.-Was, fome part of the time, greatly oppreffed with the weight and burden of my work: It feemed impoffible for me ever to go through with the bufinels I had undertaken. Towards night, was very calm and comfortable; and I think my foul trufted in -God for help.

Lord's Day, May 20.-Preached twice to the poor Indians, and enjoyed fome freedom in fpeaking, while I attempted to remove their prejudices against chriftianity. My foul longed for affiitance from above, all the while; for I faw I had no ftrength fufficient for that work. Afterwards, preached to the Irith people: Was much affiited in the first prayer, and fomething in fermon. Several perfons feemed much concerned for their fouls, with whom I difcourfed afterwards with much freedom

and fome power. Bleffed be God for any affiftance afforded to an unworthy worm. O that I could live to him!

[Through the reft of this week, he was fometimes ready to fink with a fenfe of his unworthinels and unfitness for the work of the miniftry; and fometimes encouraged and lifted aoove his fears and lorrows, and was enabled confidently to rely on God; and efpecially on Saturday,

towards night, he enjoyed calmnefs and compofure, and affiftance in prayer to God. He rejoiced (as he fays). that God remains unchangeably powerful and faithful, a fure and fufficient portion, and the dwelling place of his children in all generations.]

Lord's Day, May 27.-Vifited my Indians in the morning, and attended upon a funeral among them: Was affected to fee their heathenifh practices. O that they might be turned from darkness to light. Afterwards got a confiderable number of them together, and preached to them; and obferved them very attentive. After this, preached to the white people from Heb. ii. 3. Was enabled to fpeak with fome freedom and power: Several people feemed much concerned for their fouls; efpecially one who had heen educated a Roman Catholick. Bleffed be the Lord for any help.

Monday, May 28.-Set out from the Indians above the Forks of the Delaware, on a journey towards Newark in New Jersey, according to my orders. Rode through the wilderness; was much fatigued with the heat; lodged at a place called Black River; was exceedingly tired and

worn out.

[On Tuesday, he came to Newark: The next day, went to Elizabeth-Town: On Thursday, he went to New. York; and on Friday returned to Elizabeth-Town. Thefe days were spent in fome perplexity of mind. He contin ued at Elizabeth-Town until Friday in the week following. Was enlivened, refrefhed, and firengthened on the Sabbath at the Lord's table. The enfuing days of the week were spent chiefly in ftudies preparatory to his ordination; and on fome of them he seemed to have much of God's gracious prefence, and of the fweet influences of his fpirit; but was in a very weak state of body. On Saturday, he rode to Newark.]

Lord's Day, June 10.-[At Newark] In the morning, was much concerned how I fhould perform the work of the day; and trembled at the thoughts of being left to myfelf. Injoyed very confiderable affiflance in all parts of the public fervice. Had an opportunity again to attend on the ordinance of the Lord's fupper, and through divine goodness was refreshed in it: My foul was full of love and tender nefs towards the children of God, and to

wards all men: Felt a certain sweetness of difpofition towards every creature. At night, 1 enjoyed more fpiritu ality, and tweet defire of holinefs, than I have felt for fome time: Was afraid of every thought and every motion, left thereby my heart fhould be drawn away from God. O that I might never leave the bleffed God! Lord, in thy prefence is fulness of joy. O the bleffedness of living to God!

Monday, June 11.-This day the Prefbytery met to. gether at Newark, in order to my ordination. Was very weak and disordered in body; yet endeavoured to repofe my confidence in God. Spent most of the day alone; especially the forenoon. At three in the afternoon preached my probation fermon, from Aas xxvi. 17, 18. being a text given me for that end. Felt not well, either in body or mind; however, God carried me through comfortably. Afterwards, passed an examination before the Presbytery. Was much tired, and my mind burdened with the great. nefs of that charge I was in the most folemn manner about to take upon me: My mind was fo preffed with the weight of the work incumbent upon me, that I could not fleep this night, though very weary and in great need of reft.

Tuesday, June 12.-Was this morning further examined, relpecting my experimental acquaintance with christianity* At ten o'clock my ordination was attended: The fermon preached by the Rev. Mr. Pemberton. At this time I was affected with a fenfe of the important trust committed to me; yet was compofed and folemn, without distraction: And I hope I then (as many times before) gave myself up to God, to be for him, and not for another. O that I might always be engaged in the fervice of God, and duly remember the folemn charge I have received, in the prefence of God, angels, and men; Amen! May I be affifted of God for this purpose. Towards night rode to Elizabeth-Town.

* Mr. Pemberton, in a letter to the Honourable Socie ty in Scotland that employed Mr. Brainerd, which he wrote concerning him, (publifhed in Scotland, in the Chriftian Monthly Hiflory) writes thus, "We can with pleature fay, that Mr. Brainerd paffed through his ordi

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PART VI.

From his ORDINATION until he first began to preach to the INDIANS at CROSWEEKSUNG, among whom he had his most remarkable fuccefs.

Wednesday, June 13.-Spent fome confiderable time in writing an account of the Indian affairs to go 10 Scotland; spent fome time in conversation with friends; but enjoyed not much fweetness and fatisfaction.

Thursday, June 14.-Received fome particular kindness from friends; and wondered that God fhould open the hearts of any to treat me with kindness: Saw myself to be unworthy of any favour from God, or any of my fellow men. Was much exercised with pain in my head however determined to fet out on my journey towards Delaware in the afternoon: But in the afternoon my pain increased exceedingly; fo that I was obliged to betake myfelf to the bed; and the night following, was greatly diftreffed with pain and fickness; Was fometimes almost bereaved of the exercise of reafon by the extremity of pain. Continued much diftreffed until Saturday; when I was fomething relieved by an emetick: But was unable to walk abroad until the Monday following, in the afternoon; and still remained very feeble. I often admired the goodnefs of God, that he did not fuffer me to proceed on my journey from this place, where I was fo tenderly used, and to be fick by the way among ftrangers. God is very gracious to me, both in health and ficknefs, and intermingles much mercy with all my afflictions and toils. Enjoyed fome sweetnefs in things divine, in the midst of my pain and weakness. O, that I could praise the Lord!

nation trials, to the univerfal approbation of the Prefbytery, and appeared uncommonly qualified for the work of the ministry. He feems to be armed with a great deal of felf denial, and animated with a noble zeal to propagate the gofpel among thofe barbarous nations, who have long dwelt in the darkness of heatheniim."

[On Tuesday, June 19, he fet out on hi journey home, and in three days reached his place, near the Forks of Delaware. Performed the journey under much weakness of body; but had comfort in his foul, from day to day: And both his weakness of body, and confolation of mind, continued through the week.]

Lord's Day, June 24.-Extremely feeble; fcarce able to walk: Fowever, vifited my Indians, and took much pains to inftruct them: Laboured with fome that were much difaffected to chriftianity. My mind was much burdened with the weight and difficulty of my work. My whole dependence and hope of fuccefs feemed to be on God; who alone I faw could make them willing to receive instruction. My heart was much engaged in pray. er, fending up filent requests to God, even while I was Speaking to them. O that I could always go in the ftrength of the Lord!

Monday, June 25.-Was fomething better in health than of late: Was able to [pend a confiderable part of the day in prayer and clofe ftudies. Had more freedom and fervency in prayer than ufual of late.

Tuesday, June 26.-In the morning, my defires feemed to rife, and ascend up freely to God. Was bufy most of the day in tranflating prayers into the language of the Delaware Indians: Met with great difficulty by reafon that my interpreter was altogether unacquainted with the bufinefs. But though I was much difcouraged with the extreme difficulty of that work, yet God fupported me; and especially in the evening, gave me fweet refreshment: In prayer my foul was enlarged, and my faith drawn into fenfible exercife; was enabled to cry to God for my poor Indians; and though the work of their conversion appeared impoffible with man, yet with God I faw all things were poffible. My faith was much ftrengthened, by ob. ferving the wonderful affiftance God afforded his fervants Nehemiah and Ezra, in reforming his people, and re-establishing his ancient church. I was much assisted in prayer for dear christian friends, and for others that I apprehended to be christless; but was more efpecially concerned for the poor heathen, and thofe of my own charge: Was enabled to be inftant in prayer for them; and hoped that God would bow the heavens and come down for