fecret prayer. God was pleafed to give me the exercife of faith, and thereby brought the invifible and eternal world near to my foul; which appeared fweetly to me. I hoped, that my weary pilgrimage in the world would be fhort, and that it would not be long before I was brought to my heavenly home and Father's houfe, I was fweetly refigned to God's will, to tarry his time, to do his work, and fuffer his pleafare. I felt thankfulnefs to God for all my preffing defertions of late; for I am perfuaded they have been made a means of making me more humble, and much more refigned. I felt pleafed, to be little, to be nothing, and to lie in the daft. I enjoyed life and sweet confolation in pleading for the dear children of God, and the kingdom of Chrift in the world: And my foul earnestly breathed after holiness and the enjoyment of God. O, come Lord Jesus! come quickly. Amen.

[By his Diary for the remaining days of this week, it appears that he enjoyed confiderable compofure and tranquillity, and had fweetness and fervency of fpirit in prayer, from day to day.]

[The eight next days, he expreffes confiderable com, fort and fervency of fpirit in chriftian converfation and religious exercises.]

Monday, July 19.-My defires feem especially to be carried out after weanedness from the world, perfect deadnefs to it, and to be even crucified to all its allurements. My foul longs to feel itfelf more of a pilgrim and ftranger here below; that nothing may divert me from preffing through the lonely defart, until I arrive at my Father's houfe.

Tuesday, July 20.-It was fweet, to give away myself to God, to be difpofed of at his pleasure; and had fome feeling fenfe of the fweetnefs of being a pilgrim on earth.

[The next day, he expreffes himself as determined to be wholly devoted to God; and it appears by his Diary, that he spent the whole day in a most diligent exercise of religion, and exceeding comfortably.]

Tuelday, July 22.-Journeying from Southbury to Ripton, called at a houfe by the way, where being very kindly entertained and refreshed, I was filled with amaze. ment and fhame, that God fhould ftir up the hearts of any to shew so much kindness to fuch a dead dog as I was made fenfible, in fome measure, how exceeding vile

it is, not to be wholly devoted to God. I wondered that God would suffer any of his creatures to feed and sustain me, from time to time.

[In his Diary for the fix next days, are expreffed vari. ous exercises and experiences, fuch as fweet compofure and fervency of spirit in meditation and prayer, weaned nefs trom the world, being fenfibly a pilgrim and ftranger on the earth, engagedness of mind to fpend every inch of time for God, &c.]

Tuesday, July 29.-Was examined by the affociation met at Danbury, as to my learning, and alfo my experi ences in religion, and received a licenfe from them to preach the gofpel of Chrift. Afterwards felt much de voted to God; joined in prayer with one of the ministers my peculiar friend, in a convenient place; went to bed refolving to live devoted to God all my days.

PART II.

From the time of his being licensed to preach, by the Affociation, until he was examined in New York, by the Correfpondents or Commiffioners of the Soci ety in Scotland for propagating Chriftian Knowl edge, and approved and appointed as their Mis

SIONARY to the INDIANS.

Friday, July 30, 1742.-Rode from Danbury to Southbury; preached there from 1 Pet. iv. 8. Had much of the comfortable prefence of God in the exercife: I feemed to have power with God in prayer, and power to get hold of the hearts of the people in preaching.

Saturday, July 31.-Exceeding calm and compofed, and was greatly refreshed and encouraged.

[It appears by his Diary, that he continued in this fweetness and tranquillity, almoft through the whole of the next week.]

Lord's Day, August 8.-In the morning felt comforta bly in fecret prayer; my foul was refrefhed with the hopes of the heathen's coming home to Chrift; was much refigned to God; I thought it was no matter what became of me. Preached both parts of the day at Bethle hem, from Job xiv. 14. It was fweet to me to meditate on death. In the evening felt very comfortably, and cried to God fervently, in fecret prayer.

Thursday, Auguft 12.-This morning and laft night was exercised with fore inward trials: 1 had no power to pray; but feemed fhut out from God. I had in a great meafure loft my hopes of God's fending me among the heathen afar off, and of feeing them flock home to Chrift. I faw fo much of my hellifh vilenefs, that I appeared worse to myself than any devil: I wondered that God would let me live, and wondered that people did not stone me, much more, hat they would ever hear me preach! It seemed as though I never could nor fhould preach any more; yet about nine or ten o'clock, the people came over, and I was forced to preach: And bleffed be God,

He gave me his prefence and spirit in prayer and preaching fo that I was much affiited, and spake with power from Job xiv. 14. Some Indians cried out in great dis trefs*, and all appeared greatly concerned. After we had prayed and exhorted them to feek the Lord with conftancy, and hired an English woman to keep a kind of school among them, we came away about one o'clock, and came to Judea, about fifteen or fixteen miles. There God was pleafed to vifit my foul with much comfort. Bleffed be the Lord for all things I meet with.

[It appears that the two next days he had much com. fort, and had his heart much engaged in religion.]

Lord's Day, August 15.-Felt much comfort and devotedness to God this day. At night, it was refreshing, to get alone with God and pour out my foul. O who can conceive of the fweetnefs of communion with the bleffed God, but those that have experience of it! Glory to God forever, that I may tafte heaven below.

Monday, August 16.-Had fome comfort in fecret prayer, in the morning. Felt fweetly fundry times in prayer this day: But was much perplexed in the evening with vain converfation.

Tuesday, August 17.-Exceedingly depreffed in fpirit. It cuts and wounds my heart, to think how much felf ex. altation, fpiritual pride, and warmth of temper, I have formerly had intermingled with my endeavours to promote God's work; and sometimes I long to lie down at the feet of oppofers, and confefs what a poor imperfect creature I have been and still am. O, the Lord forgive me, and make me for the future wife as a ferpent, and harm. tefs as a dove. Afterwards enjoyed confiderable comfort and delight of foul.

Wednesday, August 18.-Spent most of this day in pray. er and reading. I fee fo much of my own extreme vllenefs, that I feel afhamed and guilty before God and man: I look to myself, like the vileft fellow in the land: I wonder that God ftirs up his people to be fo kind to me.

Thursday, August 19.-This day, being about to go from Mr. Bellamy's at Bethlehem, where I had refided

It was in a place near Kent, in the western borders of CongeAlčur; where there was a number of Indiaus.

fomé time, prayed with him, and two or three other christian friends, and gave ourselves to God with all our hearts, to be his forever. Eternity looked very near to me while I was praying. If I never should see these chriftians again in this world, it feemed but a few moments before I fhould meet them in another world. Parted with them fweetly.

Friday, Auguft 20.-I appeared fo vile to myself, that I hardly dared to think of being feen, especially on account of fpiritual pride. However, to night, I enjoyed a fweet hour alone with God fat Ripton.] I was lifted above the frowns and flatteries of this lower world, had a fweet relish of heavenly joys, and my foul did as it were get into the eternal world, and really taste of heaven. I had a sweet season of interceffion for dear friends in Chrift and God helped me to cry fervently for Zion. Bleffed be God for this season.

Monday, Auguft 23.-Had a fweet feafon in fecret prayer: The Lord drew near to my foul, and filled me with peace and divine confolation. O, my foul tafted the fweetnefs of the upper world; and was fweetly drawn out in prayer for the world, that it might come home to Chrift! Had much comfort in the thoughts and hopes of the ingathering of the heathen; and was greatly affifted in interceffion for chriftian friends.

[He continued still in the fame frame of mind the next day, but in a leffer degree.]

Wednesday, Auguft 25.-In family prayer, God helped me to climb up near him, fo that I scarce ever got nearer.

Monday, August 30.-Felt fomething comfortably in the morning; converfed fweetly with fome friends; was in a serious composed frame; prayed at a certain house with fome degree of fweetnefs. Afterwards, at another house, prayed privately with a dear chriftian friend or two; and I think I fcarce ever launched fo far into thé eternal world, as then; I got so far out on the broad ocean, that my foul with joy triumphed over all the evils on the shores of mortality. I think time and all its gay amusements and cruel difappointments, never appeared fo inconfiderable to me before I was in a fweet frame; I faw myself nothing, and my foul reached after God with intenfe defire. O! I faw what I owed to God, in fuch