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be comforted, unless I was to be comforted likewise; 1 or after," in the plenitude of enjoyment the present she would gaze on my face, and, throwing her moment bestowed. arms round my neck, would kiss away the tear It may readily be supposed that this entire com. which hung on my cheek; she would boldly plead munity of thought, occupation, and amusement was my cause against her friend and my judge; and in- of advantage to us both. Separate from ils opening sist again and again with her sweet lisping tongue, to us a fund of pleasure for the passing time, it (I think I hear it now!) that I was a good boy. In placed us in the most attractive lights to each other. these generous exercises, she preserved my affec- It gave us each an object to love; and furnished, tion and strengthened her own; and though it was however unconsciously, the opportunity and means very undesirable, that so early our loves should be of establishing our atfection. thus exposed to trial, certainly it ended in mutual What was the full amount of benefit arising to advantage.

my sister from this intercourse must be inferred The eye of a parent is remarkably searching: from her general history, rather than from any parThere was nothing in the treatment we received ticular illustrations; of the benefits derived from which a general observer would not have approved her character and attachment to myself I think I -nothing of which our parents could decidedly can speak with greater precision. How high socomplain; yet there was enough to cherish uneasi- ever the gratifications we found in our innocent, ness and dissatisfaction. There was not that ap- healthful, and sometimes pensive amusements, I am pearance of content, and cheerfulness, and uncon- conscious of having possessed a higher and deeper strained familiarity which they had been accustom- source of pleasure in my love of her. Frequently ed to see in us. The uneasiness of the child was in the very hey-day of my enjoyments, I have inquickly communicated to the heart of the parent. voluntarily paused to gaze on her with a heart full Confidence in our nurse was shaken; and we were of sweet sentiments. Memory still supplies me with restored to the society of our natural and best pro- the image of what she then was. Her lively and

affectionate blue eyes, her rosy and smiling cheeks, When Martha was about five years of age, it her open and fair countenance, her golden locks was again found desirable to afford us the advan- resting on her shoulders-her whole form, ornatage of a freer and purer air. We were therefore mented with the white frock and streaming broad situated with a friend at Mitcham in Surrey, with sash, such as I have seen it tripping over the green, whom, excepting some intervals in the winter sea- or reposing in the shadow of a tree, is still before sons, we continued for a considerable time. I have me! a distinct remembrance of the days that passed I can imagine, likewise, that her greater suscepover us at this place; childhood can have few to tibility, arising partly from her character and partly boast of happier than they.

from her sex, was equally advantageous. The boy We were no longer in circumstances to tempt the who associates only with boys, is in danger of bebad passions into exercise. The hours not engaged coming cruel and obstreperous. The mother and by the duties of our separate schools, were spent the sister are wisely prepared to soften and restrain together; we were nearly each other's sole compa- the manly propensities from running into vicious nions. Martha naturally looked to me as her bro- excess. This influence is rather uniform than ther and senior. She thought herself safe in my striking-rather effectual than palpable! but as my protection, and aspired to partake of my more ro- memory supplies me with an instance, which may bust amusements. With me she spun the top, trun- assist me in throwing out the character I am seekdled the hoop, and taught the kite to fly on the wings ing to delineate, I do not scruple to record it. of the wind. With me she chased the butterfly,

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was not long mixed with the school boys of a surmounted the stile and hedge, and wandered country village, before I acquired a taste for birdsfrom cornfield to cornfield, collecting gay flowers; nesting; a taste in the mind of an active and inquiand at last returning home, each other's king and sitive boy, remarkably keen and powerful. At first, queen, crowned with the garlands our busy fingers I did not think of rifling the nest; the discovery of had weaved.

an object so artfully concealed was abundant gratiFancy, too, had her reign; and active pursuits fication ; afterward the eggs, so beautifully colored would be resigned for those which were more pen- and marked, became an overpowering temptation ; sive. When the summer shower has been falling, while I satisfied myself in this trespass, by vowing we have sat gazing up into heaven, till we thought I would never commit the greater offence of diswe saw it sprinkled from the hands of angels, and turbing a nest of young and helpless birds. When have run out to the garden that it might fall on us. I had advanced so far, I was anxious to divide this Often have we sat beneath the elm trees, while the pursuit, as I did every other, with my sister; but glorious sun was setting, imagining his rays, broken could never succeed. Her discountenance made as they were by the branches and foliage, to be a me think, and whenever I thought about it I felt, it thousand separate stars, and amused ourselves in a was a needless cruelty. vain attempt to number them. We have wandered It happened, however, in one of our rambles, that far from home; and penetrating the copse-wood, my eye fell upon a nest without seeking it. There and burying ourselves in the leaves, have represent were several young ones in it. I thought of nothing ed the babes in the wood, till we reproached the but showing them to my sister. I seized the nest, birds for not bringing us blackberries. We have scrambled down through the bushes, and held ii made to ourselves wings, and flown to every part before her. She was not pleased, as I expected; she of the earth with which we had any acquaintance; could not help admiring them; but the tear stood in we travelled to the edge of the world (which we her eyes; she blamed me, and entreated me to recould never think of but as a plain,) and have store them. I assured her, as I believed, that the shuddered to look down into nothing. We told parent birds would never return to them, and that over again the tales of the nursery, and have it would be cruel to expose them to starve. We, invented, if possible, many things more marvel- therefore, carried them home, determined to do our lous.

very best for their preservation. But the little creaWhat joys have been ours in the midst of these tures were now dependent on skilless though kind childish engagements! Free from care and from protectors. They languished and died; but her fear, we desired nothing, we regielted nothing. We distress and her kindness, through this litile event, were a little world to ourselves, and were happy in made one of those deep impressions on my heart mutual possession. We forgot " all that was before which contribute so largely to the formation of

EDUCATION.

character; and which, could they be often traced, | lieved froin that responsibility which nature and would be found frequently to arise from occurren- nature's God imposed upon them. A general superces equally trivial. To her

intendence of our entire education, and an especial “ Whose heart, from cruel sport estranged, would regard to our moral and religious instruction, were bleed,

duties which they felt they could not, and would not To work the wo of any living thing,"

if they could, have transferred to others. With

hands so full as theirs, and with their children so I probably owe it, that, at this moment, I cannot frequently removed from their care, even these duwillingly set my foot upon a worm, nor rob a harm- ties were very difficult of performance; but a ready Jess bird of its life or of its liberty.

mind was theirs, and it is surprising what this may

accomplish. This is not the mind which refuses to CHAPTER II.

do any thing because it cannot do all it desires; it 1793-1803.

is the mind that does at once, and cheerfully, what

it can; and which was honored by the commendaIt was the inestimable privilege of my sister to tion of incarnate wisdom. be the offspring of considerate and pious parents. To do well under many disadvantages what it is If they rejoiced at her birth in receiving another not easy to do under most favorable circumstances, pledge of the Divine mercy, they trembled also is an achievement which invites inquiry, and prounder the reflection that another immortal spirit mises to reward it. I shall therefore indulge in a was committed to their charge for which they were few brief observations on the course pursued by our to be responsible. This conviction mixed sobriety excellent parents, so far as my memory will assist with their gladness, and prayer with their hopes. to retrace it, and they shall be found relevant to the

No sooner had the anguish of the inother, the ex- present design. citement of the father, passed away, than their in- It was a rule with them to begin early. My sister, fant child was, with prayers and thanksgiving, de- I am persuaded, could not recur to the time when dicated to the Being who gave it. Without any first religion was presented to her notice. From the unnecessary loss of time, this act of dedication was cradle she was taught to lift her hands in prayer, renewed and confirmed in the solemn ordinance of and behave with seriousness in the house of God; baptism, adoring, as they did, the Father of every and from a child she was made to know the Holy good and perfect gift for an institution which re- Scriptures. Our parents knew how soon soever cognised them in their parental relationships; and they attempted to occupy the heart with the good earnestly imploring that the appointed and visible seed of the kingdom, they should find it pre-occuseal of the covenant might be accompanied by its pied by an enemy who scattereth tares. They rerich and invisible grace. These prayers were a vered ihe sacredness and mysteries of religion, but thousand and a thousand times repeated in the re- they saw nothing in these which forbade them to gular exercises of the closet, the family, and the explain divine truth to the infant mind. They did sanctuary; nor was this always found sufficient for not urge their children into those depths where the the anxieties and tenderness of a pious parent. I elephant may swim; they led them to those shallows can well remember, on several occasions, seeing my where the lamb may stand and drink, and be refather walk the room with his beloved daughter freshed. They rejoiced in that Goodness which had lying in his arms. I have marked his lifted eye, his supplied a food on which, like the manna of the moving lips, and his more measured tread. Child wilderness, the infant might thrive and the man be as I was, they told me that he was in prayer. I re-invigorated. They admired that Wisdom which collect nothing at this period that gave me such an had made truth familiar to us by narrative, by paelevated idea of my father's goodness as this act, rable, and by fable; which had even imbodied and performed, as he evidently thought it was, without brought it near to us in the humanity of the Saa witness.' Thus was he commending one child to viour; so that the understanding and the heart, in the blessing of heaven, and opening the passages to their feeblest state, might be interested. They were the heart of another for the blessing he had already concerned to imitate this condescension; and no so often solicited!

one can judge how easily they succeeded but by Martha's parents were honest in their prayers making the experiment. and unsophisticated in their religious views; to Our parents always dwelt on a few governing prinpray and to act with them, therefore, if not the ciples in our education. It is readily admitted that same, were yet inseparable things. They believed they had not those comprehensive views of educawith bishop Sanderson (it is the creed of common tion which are now happily possessed by most insense) that prayer without exertion is presumption, telligent parents of the same class. But if their and that exertion without prayer is atheism; and plans had less of philosophy in them, they had more they resolved to adopt the best means to realize of religion ; if they described a smaller circle, they their own devout desires.

described it the oftener; and, after all, RELIGION AND The routine of school education they were oblig- REPETITION are the soul of education. Of religious ed to trust in other hands; but they spared neither truths they choose the simplest and most influeninquiry nor expense in securing for so important a tial. It was their effort to bring their children at trust hands that were most worthy. It was a family once into communion with their

Maker. The exmaxim, often repeated that it might never be broken, istence, the justice, the goodness, and the presence that a good education was a fortune a chilt could of the Divine Being, as they bear upon our circumnever spend, and a parent could always bestow.stances of weakness, guilt, and temptation, and as Filial gratitude is powerfully excited in recalling they provide for us abundant salvation, were the the many sacrifices and determined self-denial that sentiments on which they insisted, and by, which were necessary in doing justice to this maxim; a they sought to enlighten the mind, impress the conmaxim which had descended from my maternal science, and govern the conduct. They thus pregrandfather, the only shred by which his name now pared a good foundation on which to build; and if fastens to my memory. So does the very record of they did not raise the superstructure so high, nor man hasten to decay! And so may one wise and throw around it so much of ornament as might be practical saying arrest it in its course to oblivion, desirable, they succeeded infinitely better than those and render it a blessing to posterity.

who, with unmeasured pains and skill, trust to soBy obtaining assistance for one branch of educa- cial claims, worldly prudence, and metaphysical tion, our parents did not consider themselves re- theory for the formation of character. The one

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builds rudely perhaps—but it is upon a rock; the holy.” They did not treat the name and character other builds magnificently-but it is upon sand! of the minister with levity or rudeness, and then

They were also remarkable for seizing all occa- wonder that their children were not impressed by sions to carry forward the work of education. This his ministrations. They did not lend their tongues arosc partly from their limited opportunities to plead for a religion of humility and charity, knowing them to be few, they were eager to em- while they cherished in their hearis envy, hatred, brace them all; and partly from having minds al- and pride. No; they were sincere and decided in ways awake to the importance of religion and the their profession. They renounced from their hearts welfare of their children. They did not indeed | what it was right their children should renounce; moralize, and task their children io wearisomeness, and pursued with their might what they exhorted por did they so mingle serious things with worldly theni to pursue. They pointed to heaven, and led intercourse as to soil their purity; but they employ the way. In their busiest pursuit of worldly things, ed the present emotion, and the passing event, io it was apparent that they were animated by dearer make a lasting and good impression. The conduct hopes than earth could either inspire or gratify. of others, the pains and wants of the body, the com- It will readily be concluded, that such prayers, forts and' vexations of life, with endless other cir- such exertions, and such example could not have cumstances, were used, as they were under the at- been without their influence; ît now remains to tention of their children, to give and to fix the mo- ascertain the amount and character of this influ. ral or pious lesson on the heart.

ence on the mind of my sister, while yet a child. To parents so circumstanced, the Sabbath is of At this early period she was remarkable for an unspeakable value; and in this instance the oppor- enlightened state of the conscience. She was quick tunities it afforded were well appreciated and em- to mark vice and inconsistency; and in the earlier ployed. The whole family welcomed its arrival part of her childhood, while to feel and to speak and regretted its departure. It was a day that yield- were the same thing, she would at once express ed more of rest and of comfort, and of domestic herself to the offending party : so that the swearer intercourse and affection, than any other; and about and Sabbath-breaker have been confused by her reour parents there was an alacrity and cheerfulness proof. Her conscience was active when it could in meeting its duties which induced us to think not decide on the presence of evil; and in noticing there was a charm in them, when we were not those dubious actions which she had too much light otherwise sensible of it. My mind returns to few to approve, and too little to condemn, she would be things in childhood with more pleasure than many constantly applying to her parents with the ques of the Sabbath evenings of that period, which Mar- tions- Is that right? Is he a good man? Can he tha and myself commonly spent with our father. love God ?

At these seasons we were required to repeat what Her conscience was equally faithful with herself; we could remember of the public services; we then she would easily detect her faults, and in most cases went through our catechetical exercises; and at acknowledge them with great ingenuousness of the end of these we generally took our places, my disposition. On one occasion, the servant who was sister on the lap, and myself between the knees, of intrusted with taking her to chapel resolved to our beloved parent. His countenance, naturally give the time to pleasure ; she amused and treated grave, would wear a serene smile; and he would Martha till she thought her more than reconciled enter into familiar conversation with us, answer to the act of disobedience; but the first sight of her ing our questions or proposing his own. We mother revived the subdued sense of wrong, and, then chose a hymn and he sang it with us; we much to the servant's vexation, she ran to her lap, thought no one could sing so sweetly. After- burst into tears, and told every thing that had ocward he would caress us, and smile upon us, curred, taking to herself a full share of the offence. and frequently he would close by pressing us What is of yet greater consequence, she was nearer to his side, and saying, with a feeling we thus early in the habit of confessing her faults in could not then understand, "God Almighty bless private and voluntary prayer. Prayer was certainye, my children!" By this time our mother usually ly less irksome to her ihan to most children, and it joined us. We talked and sang afresh. It was an became indispensable to her peace when her conhour of gladness. Our parenis embraced us, and science reproached her with having done wrong. we embraced each other. At such a moment there in a letter which I possess, afterward written to was but one thing that could heighten our joy : it some children, she states, that when she was was simply to hear our father say, Well, my dear, very little girl," if she had committed any fault, I should like the children to siay up and sup she used to confess it to God, and pray that she with us to-dighı.” If these words were uttered, might be made sorry for it, and do it no more. whose parents were so good as ours! or what chil- Martha had, at this period, a vivid sense of the dren so happy!

Divine Omnipresence. This impression was likely It would be needless to add, did not its pre-emi- to be made by her general religious instruction ; nent importance require it to be placed in a promi- but I ascribe its clearness and power to one of those nent light, that they were concerned to sustain all their happy and beneficial Sabbath evening exercises instructions by their own example. Children are which have been already noticed. Our father geastonishingly quick in observing how far their nerally confined his conversations to one subject, teachers are influenced by the lessons they give that our attention might not be dissipated; and on It is in vain that we point them to an upward, nar- this evening he chose the universal presence of row, and forbidding path, if we are walking in a Deity. He read to us the 139th Psalm. He exbroad, flowery, and fascinating one; it is in vain plained and enforced it in its practical tendencies. that we enforce the necessity of humility and self- Afterward we sung a part of it in the version of denial, if we are slaves tó sense and selfishness. Dr. Watts. We were much interested. We proThey will see through the hypocrisy, and are in posed many curious questions on a subject so indanger, in their turn, of becoming either hypo-comprehensible; but our anxious instructer gave crites or infidels.

them all a practical direction. Martha was partiOur parents exposed their children to no such cularly affected; and the impression remained on perils. They did not attempt to worship God and her. She committed the Psalm to memory; and Mammon. They did not mix up with the Sabbath she was constantly making allusion to its prevailing worldly pleasures and vain conversation, and then sentiment; she would sometimes name it as a conexpect their children to "remember to keep it solation to her parents; and a considerable time af

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ter she had received the impression, she employed all other children, Martha gave her parents occa-
it to reprove me. I was hastened to bed, and had sional concern; but the tenor of her mind was
forgotten to say my prayers; she told me of the marked by confidence, affection, and obedience
omission, and admonished me by adding—"Re- They are persuaded that, though naturally amia-
member, brother, God sees you!"

ble, nothing produced this equally with the reli-
I cannot but think that this sentiment, thus deep- gious character of their instructions. They insist.
ly fixed in her mind, exerted a great moral power ed on love and obedience as due to God, and this
on her conduct; that it delivered her from the included all that was due to themselves. Had they
meanness of hypocrisy, and many other temptations selfishly only enforced the lesser duties, they might
incident to childhood. I would not venture to say have realized neither; but have gone down to the
that, as a child, she was free from deceit, falsehood, grave in sorrow. They honored the God they
or pilfering; but undoubtedly she was superior in served, and He honored them. They passed
these respects to most children I have known; and through many trials, but they have not had the bit-
to what can this with such propriety be referred as terness of beholding any one of their children
to the conviction that she was not acting merely in turning aside from a religious profession to the
the presence of beings on whose ignorance or cre- paths of

vice and folly. And now that they are
dulity she could often impose, but under the eye of old and gray-headed," and are "as those who
a Being who saw every thing, who saw it as it watch for the coming of their Lord,” I have it in
really was, and with whom, therefore, it was as charge from them to state, as their matured convic-
foolish as it was wicked to attempt deception ? tion, that if the means used for the religious benefit

Nothing, however, seemed more uniformly to of our children do ultimately fail, it must generally
attract her regard than the display of the Divine arise either from want of skill or fidelity; for
goodness. On these her parents frequently dis- He is true who has said, " Train up a child in the
coursed; and on these, a temper so susceptible and way he should go, and when he is old he will not
generous as hers was likely to dwell with particular depart from it.'
pleasure. This goodness, as it is familiarized to
the tenderest mind in the incarnation and history

CHAPTER III,
of the Saviour, was most engaging. She preferred
this record of infinite compassion to all other books,

IMPRESSIONS. 1803-1803.
and to all other parts of the Bible. She would pre- The constitution of society, like the waters of a
vail with me to read portions of it to her, and more river, is constantly varying; and all its variations
frequently peruse them intently herself; and it was are marked by the bestowment and recession of
seldom done without an expression of sympathy, peculiar advantages. Whatever may be the im-
either by the tear that started into her eye, or the provements of the present period, certainly we
admiring exclamation, "How good he was, bro- have gained nothing in our domestic attachments.
ther! How good he was !"

Relative affection is the fruit of familiar and longSo fully, at times, did these sentiments possess continued intercourse : but now, either from custom her, that she was not seldom employed in attempt- or necessity, it too commonly happens, that the paing to make others as happy with them as she felt rent and the child, the brother and the sister, see litherself to be. I remember to have been present tle of each other during a season in which the heart when she had a little party of friends, and when is most alive to sympathy, and in which if the seeds she could not have been more than eight years of of love are not sown, they will either not spring up age.

Not of my sex nor age, I was among them at all, or afford a late and sickly plant, neither loverather as an idle boy than as a playfellow. When ly nor serviceable. Hence we have so little of frathey were somewhat fatigued, and my sister was ternal attachment and filial devotion; so poor a reat a loss to present them with fresh amusement, membrance of the natal days and principal events she sat down in the midst of them, and spontane- of a family; so few of those domestic meetings ously began talking about the goodness of Je- which, once in the year at least, brought all the resus Christ; she touched on the most prominent latives together from the venerable grandsire down events in his life with such simplicity and anima- to the rosy babe of the third generation; and which, tion of countenance as interested all her visiters, by anticipation or review, shed something of their and her brother likewise ; and the remainder of the gladness and exhilaration on all the intervening evening was spent in singing those hymns, and periods of life. talking of those characters in Scripture history,

I allude to this change the more feelingly, bewhich are usually favorites with children. I intro- cause, at this moment, I am sensible of having sufduce this trifling incident merely to show how the fered by it. Our parents had succeeded, against subject occupied her youthful thoughts; and it may many forbidding circumstances, to keep my sister weil be supposed that they would impart tender- and myself mostly together during the earlier part ness and elevation to a mind already so susceptible. of childhood, and had thus knit our hearts together Let it not be concluded that, in thus illustrating in love ; now, however,

our separation, more or less the effects of religious instruction on my sister's for some years, was inevitable. I was, therefore, opening life, I am claiming for her the unquestion- deprived of opportunity to observe the progress of able evidences of genuine piety. Piety can as- her character as I was becoming more fit for the suredly be known to us only by settled and tried work; and must be content to reduce a consideracharacter; these cannot be the growth of child- ble term in her brief life within narrow limits, when hood; favorable symptoms at this period should otherwise it might have furnished lengthened and therefore be entertained, with gratitude and hope profitable detail. indeed, but still with caution. I have traced them Prior to this date, our family had removed to as the legitimate fruits of an education which, Chiswell-street, Finsbury Square; and as the situwhatever may have been its deficiencies, was be-ation was more open, our parents determined to gon, and continued, and ended in the fear of God; keep the younger children beneath their eye. Marof an education which respected principles more tha, therefore, enjoyed their care and society for than accomplishments, and a future life more than several years without interruption, and they en

joyed in her all the satisfaction which an affectionNor must I bring the sketch to a close without ate and improving child can bestow. At the same observing, that this course of education brought as time, her education was committed to a lady, who, many benefits to the parents as to the child. Like not content with imparting the ordinary instruc

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tions, watched sedulously over the religious welfare worthy and pious partner of an excellent minister
of her pupils. Under such circumstances, it is sup- in the Baptist denomination.
posing the least to say, that Martha's sympathies As her understanding expanded, Martha took an
towards the objects by which they had been awak- increasing interest in the public discourses of the
ened did not diminish. More than this I might ministry. She had hitherto found pleasure princi.
perhaps say from my own observation, as I still had pally in the conversations of her parents, and in
occasional opportunities of intercourse with her, those addresses which were especially directed te
and was concerned to make a serious use of them; children; but now, as she obtained power to con:
becoming as I was, at this period, interested in the nect the parts and comprehend the designs of a ser
things of an invisible world more than I had previ- mon, she felt herself profited, and the sense of profit
ously been.

afforded gratification. She became an attentive Some of the children in the school to which Mar- hearer of the word preached, and commenced tha was now attached were in the habit of attend- practice which she afterwards continued, of noting, ing a catechetical exercise, conducted by Mr. John either on the Sabbath or on the ensuing day, what Scott

, a gentleman well known as a blameless elder she could recollect of the discourses to which she of the tabernacle, and a partner in the firm of a had attended. The specimens of this practice which respectable banking-house in the city, but still bet. I have by me are proofs of a diligent hand and reter known and loved as the kind and devoted friend tentive memory. of children. They were eager in pressing Martha There are some brief passages in life to which to join them in their attendance on this condescend- the interest of years is given; in which impressions ing instructer; and Martha was as eager in apply- are made of a nature so powerful as to contribute ing to her parents for permission so to do. Always largely in shaping the character and influencing desirous of promoting by any means the spiritual the pursuits of the individual. One of these imporbenefit of their child, and having no similar exer- tant periods it is now necessary to observe. It hapcise in the churches io which they respectively be- pened that Martha, in her fifteenth year, and in her . longed, they readily met her request, and lost no accustomed attendance on the instituted means of time in procuring for her a necessary introduction. grace, heard a sermon by the Rev. William Al

My sister was now twelve years of age; and the len, then of Exeter, on the devices of Satan. The period requires to be marked, as it is associated sermon was of course solemn and admonitory. She with some strong and abiding impressions. The had probably heard many such before; but she had lessons to which she had often attended were en- not been similarly affected by them. She had adforced by a new voice, clothed with happy illustra- mired the preacher rather than thought of herself; tions, and commended by manners both serious and she had been gratified rather than concerned. Now, gentle; and they made a fuller and deeper entry however, truth was presented in new and convincinto her mind. "Nothing clave to her memory so ing lights: she felt that there was something to be readily as the instructions of her beloved teacher; known of which she was ignorant: and her mind and the animation with which she would frequeni- was urged, by its own uneasiness, to reflection. ly repeat his striking remarks and beautifully sim- Hitherto Martha's mind had been free from any ple representations of Divine truth, sufficiently continued uneasiness on religious accounts. She evinced how well she perceived and felt them. In had been r.urtured on the bosom of parental piety; after-life she was accustomed to refer to these as her education had restrained her from many of the having assisted her to think rightly on many prac- faults common to childhood; she rejoiced in the extical points in religion; and the name of Scott ercise of filial love and obedience; her sensibility never passed her lips without expressions indicative sympathized with the affecting portion of Scripture of high esteem and filial love.

history; her temper was cheerful, joyous, and unThe possession and the bestowment of happiness suspicious: what wonder, then, if she had hastily in a spirit active and affectionate as Martha's, were concluded that she knew all it was necessary to identified; it was, therefore, an immediate inquiry, know, felt all it was needful to seel, and did all it how she might make others to share in her pleasure was requisite to do? and profit. It was not long before she found means If any thing occasionally disturbed this state of of reply. She had risen into the good opinion and self-satisfaction, it was the often-reiterated admoniconfidence of her governess, and was sometimes tion of her anxious and beloved parents :-"Reemployed as a sort of monitor over the younger member, my dear, profession is not possession ; pious children. These she induced to prepare their tasks education is not piety—the form of godliness will once a week in less than the allotted period; and never save you." These exhortations had fixed the surplus time was occupied by repeating and themselves in her memory, while her mind was unurging on their attention as much of Mr. Scott's prepared to appreciate them; but, now that her eye address as she could remember. They liked the was turned inwardly upon herself, they rose to her exercise-it was not an imposed task. Their mis- clothed with an importance they had never woru tress either connived at or approved it. It became before, and gave force to those convictions of which more frequent; and that it might be less open to she was so entirely the subject. disturbance, they used to retire into a closet which Martha's principal deficiency had been the wan: was attached to the school-room.

of self-inspection-a defect that is never supplied Martha was often thrown on her own resources, but by religious influence. She had mourned over small as they were; nor did they prove less accept- an evil temper, and confessed the criminality of a able to her little auditors. On referring to these wrong action ; but she had not inquired into the engagements only a few months since, she remark- motives and principles of conduct; she had admited~"What I said to the children I have no idea, ted the truth of our general depravity, but she had It was usually about religion and the Saviour. I not realized it. And now that she was disposed to was very earnest, and sometimes burst into tears, a sincere examination of her heart, she was surand not uncommonly we all wept together.” How prised and pained at the discoveries which were far these tears were the pledges of real benefit it is made to her. In bringing her thoughts, her monot needful to determine. It is, however, worthy of tives, and her affections to a high, holy, and spiri. passing record, that several of the children who tual standard-a standard she had not before comthus associated with her are now sustaining a con- prehended-she found that the least offence, the sistent profession of godliness; and one of the num- least defect, exposed her to condemnation. She ber, with whom she wos especially intimate, is the was constrained to admit that she had sinned, and

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