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"I don't know that it's selfish it's natural," said Mr. Brownlow; and then he sighed. 'Jack, I have something to say to you. We had a talk on a serious subject some time ago

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Yes," said Jack. He saw now what was coming, and set himself to face it. He thrust his hands deep down into his pockets, and set up his shoulders to his ears, which was a good warning, had Mr. Brownlow perceived it, that come right or wrong, come rhyme or reason, this rock should fly from its firm base as soon as Jack would-and that any remonstrance on the subject was purely futile. But Mr. Brownlow did not perceive.

"I thought you had been convinced," his father continued. "It might be folly on my part to think any sort of reason would induce a young fellow, brought up as you have been, to forego his pleasure; but I suppose I had a prejudice in favour of my own son, and I thought you saw it in the right point of view. I hear from Sara to-night"

"I should like to know what Sara has to do with it," said Jack, with an explosion of indignation. "Of course, sir, all you may have to say on this or any other subject I am bound to listen to with respect; but as for Sara and her interference "

"Don't be a fool, Jack," said Mr. Brownlow sharply. "Sara has told me nothing that I could not have found out for myself. I warned you; but it does not appear to have been of any use; and now I have a word more to say. Look here. I take an interest in this little girl at the gate. There is something in her face that reminds me - - but never mind that. I feel sure she's a good girl, and I won't have her harmed. Understand me once for all. You may think it a small matter enough, but it's not a small matter. I won't have that child harmed. If she should come to evil through you, you shall have me to answer to. It is not only her poor mother or any poor friend she may have".

"Sir," cried Jack, boiling over, "do you know you are insulting me?

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"Listen to what I am saying," said his fath"Don't answer. I am in earnest. She is an innocent child, and I won't have her harmed If you can't keep away from her, have the honesty to tell me so, and I'll find means to get you away. Good Lord, sir! is every instinct of manhood so dead in you that you cannot overcome a vicious inclination, though it should rnin that poor innocent child?"

A perfect flood of fury and resentment swept through Jack's mind; but he was not going to be angry and lose his advantage. He was white with suppressed passion; but his voice

did not swell with anger as his father's had done. It was thus his self-possession that carried the day.

"When you have done, sir," he said, taking off his hat with a quietness which cost him an immense effort, " perhaps you will hear what I have got to say."

Mr. Brownlow for the moment had lost his temper, which was very foolish. Probably it was because other things too were going wrong, and his sense of justice did not permit him to avenge their contrariety upon the purely innocent. Now Jack was not purely innocent, and here was an outlet. And then he had been walking about in the avenue for more than an hour waiting, and was naturally sick of it. And, finally, having lost his own temper, he was furious with Jack for not losing his.

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Speak out, sir," he cried; "I have done. Not that your speaking can make much difference. I repeat, if you hurt a hair of that child's head"

"I will thank you to speak of her in a different way," said Jack, losing patience also. "You may think me a villain if you please; but how dare you venture to suppose that I could bring her to harm? Is she nobody? is that all you think of her? By Jove! the young lady you are speaking of, without knowing her," said Jack, suddenly stopping himself, staring at his father with calm fury, and speaking with deadly emphasis, "is going to be my wife."

Mr. Brownlow was so utterly confounded that he stood still and stared in his turn at his audacious son. He gave a start as if some one had shot him; and then he stood speechless and stared, wondering blankly if some transformation had occurred, or if this was actually Jack that stood before him. It ought to have been a relief to his mind no doubt if he had been as good a man as he ought to have been. he would have gone down on his knees, and given thanks that his son's intentions were so virtuous; but in the mean time amaze swallowed up every other sentiment. "Your wife!" he said, with the utmost wonder which the human voice is capable of expressing in his voice. The wildest effort of imagination could never have brought him to such an idea-Jack's wife! His consternation was such that it took the strength out of him. He could not have said a word more had it been to save his life. If any one had pushed rudely against him, he might have dropped on the ground in the weakness of his amaze. "You might have knocked him down with a feather," was the description old Betty would have given; and she would have been right.

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Yes," said Jack, with a certain magnificence; "and as for my power, or any man's power, of harming-her. By Jove ! — though of course you didn't know".

This he said magnanimously, being not without pity for the utter downfall which had overtaken his father. Their positions, in fact, had totally changed. It was Mr. Brownlow who was struck dumb. Instead of carrying things

with a high hand as he had begun to do, it was | colour rushing up into his face, though in the he who was reduced into the false position. darkness there was nobody who could seeAnd Jack was on the whole sorry for his fa- "no, only a few days." ther. He took his hands out of the depths of his pockets, and put down his shoulders into their natural position. And he was willing "to let down easy," as he himself expressed it, the unlucky father who had made such an astounding mistake.

As for Mr. Brownlow, it took him some time to recover himself. It was not quite easy to realise the position, especially after the warm, not to say violent, way in which he had been beguiled into taking Pamela's part He had meant every word of what he said. Her sweet little face had attracted him more than he knew how to explain; it had reminded him, he could not exactly tell of what, of something that belonged to his youth and made his heart soft. And the thought of pain or shame coming to her through his son had been very bitter to him. But he was not quite ready all the same to say, Bless you, my children. Such a notion, indeed, had never occurred to him. Mr. Brownlow had never for a moment supposed that his son Jack, the wise and prudent, could have been led to entertain such an idea; and he was so much startled that he did not know what to think. After the first pause of amazement, he had gone on again slowly, feeling as if by walking on some kind of mental progress might also be practicable; and Jack had accompanied him in a slightly jaunty, magnanimous, and forgiving way. Indeed, circumstances altogether had conspired, as it were, in Jack's favour. He could not have hoped for so good an opportunity of telling his story -an opportunity which not only took all that was formidable from the disclosure, but actually presented it in the character of a relief and standing evidence of unthought-of virtue. And Jack was so simple-minded in the midst of his wisdom that it seemed to him as if his father's anticipated opposition were summarily disposed of, to be heard of no more a thing which he did not quite know whether to be sorry for or glad.

Perhaps it staggered him a little in this idea when Mr. Brownlow, after going on, very slowly and thoughtfully, almost to the very door of the house, turned back again, and began to retrace his steps, still as gravely and quietly as

ever.

Then a certain thrill of anticipation came over Jack. One fytte was ended, but another was for to say. Feeling had been running very high between them when they last spoke; now there was a certain hushed tone about the talk, as if a cloud had suddenly rolled over them. Mr. Brownlow spoke, but he did not look at Jack, nor even look up, but went on moodily, with his eyes fixed on the ground, now and then stopping to kick away a little stone among the gravel, a pause which became almost tragic by repetition. "Is it long since this happened?" he said, speaking in a very subdued tone of voice.

"No," said Jack, feeling once more the high

"And you said your wife," Mr. Brownlow added your wife. Whom does she belong to? People don't go so far without knowing a few preliminaries, I suppose?

"I don't know who she belongs to, except her mother," said Jack, growing very hot; and then he added on the spur of the moment, "I daresay you think it's not very wise I don't pretend it's wise-I never supposed it was; but as for the difficulties, I am ready to face them. I don't see that I can say any more."

"I did not express any opinion," said Mr. Brownlow coldly; no-I don't suppo-e wisdom has very much to do with it. But I shou'd like to understand. Do you mean to say that every thing is settled? or do you only speak in hope?"

Yes, it is quite settled," said Jack in spite of himself, this cold questioning had made a difference even in the sound of his voice. It all came before him again in its darker colours. The light seemed to steal out of the prospect before him moment by moment. His face burned in the dark; he was disgusted with himself for not having something to say; and gradually he grew into a state of feverish irritation at the stones which his father took the trouble to kick away, and the crunching of the gravel under his feet.

"And you have not a penny in the world," said Mr. Brownlow in his dispassionate voice.

"No," said Jack, "I have not a penny. in the world."

And then there was another pause. The very stars seemed to have gone in, not to look at his discomfiture, poor fellow! A cold little wind had sprung up, and went moaning out and in eerily among the trees; even old Betty at the lodge had gone to bed, and there was no light to be seen from her windows. The prospect was black, dreary, very chilling - nothing to be seen but the sky, over which clouds were stealing, and the tree-tops swaying wildly against them; and the sound of the steps on the gravel. Jack had uttered his last words with great firmness and even a touch of indignation; but there can be no doubt that heaviness was stealing over his heart.

"If it had been any one but yourself who told me, Jack," said his father, "I should not have believed it. You, of all men in the world - I ought to beg your pardon for misjudging you. I thought you would think of your own pleasure rather than of anybody's comfort, and

was mistaken. I beg your pardon. I am glad to have to make you an apology like this."

"Thanks," said Jack curtly. It was complimentary, no doubt; but the compliment itself was not complimentary. I beg your pardon for thinking you a villain - that was how it sounded to his cars; and he was not flattered even by his escape.

"But I can't rejoice over the rest," said

Mr. Brownlow "it is going against all your own principles, for one thing. You are very young you have no call to marry for ten years at least and of course if you wait ten years you will change your mind.' "I have not the least intention of waiting ten years," said Jack.

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"Then perhaps you will be so good as to inform me what your intentions are," said his father, with a little irony; "if you have thought at all on the subject it may be the easier way." Of course I have thought on the subject," said Jack; "I hope I am not a fellow to do things without thinking. I don't pretend it is prudent. Prudence is very good, but there are some things that are better. I mean to get married with the least possible delay."

"And then?" said Mr. Brownlow.

"Then, sir, I suppose,' ," said Jack, not without a touch of bitterness, " you will let me remain in the office, and keep my clerkship; seeing that, as you say, I have not a penny in the world."

Then they walked on together again for several minutes in the darkness. It was not wonderful that Jack's heart should be swelling with a sense of injury. Here was he a rich man's son, with the great park breathing round him in the darkness, and the great house shining behind, with its many lights, and many servants, and much luxury. All was his father's all and a great deal more than that; and yet he, his father's only son, had "not a penny in the world." No wonder Jack's heart was very bitter within him; but he was too proud to make a word of complaint.

"You think it cruel of me to say so," Mr. Brownlow said, after that long pause; "and so it looks, I don't doubt. But if you knew as much as I do, it would not appear to you so wonderful. I am neither so rich nor so assured in my wealth as people think."

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Do you mean that you have been losing money? said Jack, who was half touched, in the midst of his discontent, by his father's

tone.

"I have been losing - not exactly money," said Mr. Brownlow, with a sigh; but never mind; I can't hide from you, Jack, that you have disappointed me. I feel humbled about it altogether. Not that I am a man to care for worldly advantages that are won by marriage; but yet and you did not seem the sort of boy to throw yourself away."

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"Look here, father," said Jack; "you may be angry, but I must say one word. I think a man. when he can work for his wife, has a right to marry as he likes at least if he likes," added the young philosopher hastily, with a desperate thought of his consistency; but I do think a girl's friends have something to do with it. Yet you set your face against me, and let that fellow see Sara constantly-see her alone -talk with her - I found them in the flowergarden the other day, and then, by Jove! you pitch into me.'

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"You are speaking of young Powys," said

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Mr. Brownlow, with sudden dignity; is a totally different thing I have told you so before."

"And I have told you, sir, that you are mistaken," said Jack. "How is Powys different? except that he's a young. cad- and never had any breeding. As for any idea you may have in your head about his family - have you ever seen his mother?"

"Have you?" said Mr. Brownlow; and his heart, too, began to beat heavily, as if there could be any sentimental power in that good woman's name.

"Yes," said Jack, in his ignorance," she is a homely sort of sensible woman, that never could have been anything beyond what she is ; and one look at her would prove that to you. I don't mean to say I like people that have seen better davs: but you would never suppose she had been anything more than what she is now; she might have been a Masterton shop-keeper's daughter from Chestergate or Dove Street,' Jack continued, "and she would have looked just as she looks now."

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Mr. Brownlow, in spite of himself, gave a long shuddering sigh. He drew a step apart from his son, and stumbled over a stone in the gravel, not having the heart even to kick it away. Jack's words, though they were so careless and so ignorant, went to his father's heart. As it happened, by some curious coincidence, he had chosen the very locality from which Phoebe Thompson would have come. And it rang into the very centre of that unsuspected target which Mr. Brownlow had set up to receive chance shots in his heart.

"I don't know where she has come from," he said; "but yet I tell you Powys is different; and some day you will know better. But whatever may be done about that has nothing to do with your own case, I repeat to you, Jack, it is very humbling to me."

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Here he s'opped short, and Jack was doggedly silent, and had not a word of sympathy to give him. It was true, this second mesalliance was a great blow to Mr. Brownlow - a greater biow to his pride and sense of family importance than anybody could have supposed. He had made up his mind to it that Sara must marry Powys; that her grandeur and her pretty state could only be secured to her by these means, and that she must pay the price for themprice which, fortunately, she did not seem to have any great difficulty about. But that Jack should make an ignoble marriage too, that people should be able to say that the attorney's children had gone back to their natural grade, and that all his wealth, and their admittance iuto higher circles, and Jack's education, and Sara's sovereignty, should end in their marrying, the one her father's clerk, the other the little girl in the cottage at the gate, was a very bitter pill to their father. He had never schemed for great marriages for them, never attempted to bring heirs and heiresses under their notice; but still it was a downfall. Even the Brownlows of Masterton had made very different alliances.

It was perhaps a curious sort of thing to strike a man, and a man of business, but nevertheless it was very hard upon him. In Sara's case-if it did come to anything in Sara's case- there was an evident necessity, and there was an equivalent; yet even there Mr. Brownlow knew that when the time came to avow the arrangement, it would not be a pleasant office. He knew how people would open their eyes, how the thing would be spoken of, how his motives and her motives would be questioned. And to think of Jack adding another story to the wonder of the county! Mr. Brownlow did not care much for old Lady Motherwell, but he knew what she would say. She would clasp her old hands together in their brown gloves (if it was morning), and she would say, "They were always very good sort of people, but they were never much in our way and it is far better they should settle in their own condition of life. I am glad to hear the young people have had so much sense." So the county people would be sure to say, and the thought of it galled Mr. Brownlow. He would not have felt it so much had Jack alone been the culprit, and Sara free to marry Sir Charles Motherwell, or any other county potentate; but to think of both!- and of all the spectators that were looking on, and all their comments! It was mere pride and personal feeling, he knew - even feeling that was a little paltry and scarcely worthy of him- but he could not help feeling the sting and humiliation; and this perhaps, though it was merely fanciful, was the one thing which galled him most about Jack.

Jack, for his part, had nothing to say in opposition. He opened his eyes a little in the dark to think of this unsuspected susceptibility on his father's part, but he did not think it unjust. It seemed to him on the whole natural enough. It was hard upon him, after he had worked and struggled to bring his children into this position. Jack did not understand his father's infatuation in respect to Powys. It was infatuation. But he could well enough understand how it might be very painful to him to see his only son make an obscure marriage. He was not offended at this. He felt for his father, and even he felt for himself, who had the thing to do. It was not a thing he would have approved of for any of his friends, and he did not approve of it in his own case. He knew it was the only thing he could do; and after an evening such as that he had passed with little Pamela, he forgot that there was any thing in it but delight and sweetness. That, however, was a forgetfulness which could not last long. He had felt it could not last long even while he was taking his brief enjoyment of it, and he began again fully to realise the other side of the question as he walked slowly along in the dark by his father's side. The silence lasted a long time, for Mr. Brownlow had a great deal to think about. He walked on mechanically almost as far as Betty's cottage, forgetting almost his son's presence, at least forgetting that there was any

necessity for keeping up a conversation. At last, however, it was he who spoke.

"Jack," he said, "I wish you would reconsider all this. Don't interrupt me, please. I wish you'd think it all over again. I don't say that I think you very much to blame. She has a sweet face," said Mr Brownlow, with a certain melting of tone," and I don't say that she may not be as sweet as her face; but still, Jack. you are very young, and it's a very unsuitable match. You are too sensible not to acknowledge that; and it may injure your prospects and cramp you for all your life. In justice both to yourself and your family, you ought to consider all that."

"As it happens, sir, it is too late to consider all that," said Jack, "even if I ever could have balanced secondary motives against "

"Bah!' said Mr. Brownlow; and then he added, with a certain impatience, "don't tell me that you have not balanced-I know you too well for that. I know you have too much sense for that. Of course you have balanced all the motives. And do you tell me that you are ready to resign all your advantages, your pleasant life here, your position, your prospects, and go and live on a clerk's income in Masterton-all for love?" said Mr. Brownlow. He did not mean to sneer; but his voice, as he spoke, took a certain inflection of sarcasm, as perhaps comes natural to a man beyond middle age, when he has such suggestions to make.

Jack once more thrust his hands into the depths of his pockets, and gloom and darkness came into his heart. Was it the voice of the Tempter that was addressing him? But then, had he not already gone over all that ground? the loss of all comforts and advantages, the clerk's income, the little house in Masterton. "I have already thought of all that," he said. "as you suggest; but it does not make any difference to me.' Then he stopped and made a long pause. "If this is all you have to say to me sir, perhaps it will be best to stop here," said Jack; and he made a pause, and turned back again with a certain determination towards the house.

"It is all I have to say," said Mr. Brownlow gravely; and he too turned round, and the two made a solemn march homewards, with scarcely any talk. This is how Jack's story was told. He had not thought of doing it, and he had found little comfort and encouragement in the disclosure; but still it was made, and that was so much gained. The lights were beginning to be extinguished in the windows, so late and long had been their discussion. But, as they came up, Sara became visible at the window of her own room, which opened upon a balcony. She had come to look for them in her pretty white dressing-gown, with all her wealth of hair streaming over her shoulders. It was a very familiar sort of apparel, but still, to be sure, it was only her father and her brother who were witnesses of her little exhibition. "Papa, I could not wait for you," she cried, leaning over the balcony, “I couldn't keep

Angelique sitting up. Come and say good-
night." When Mr. Brownlow went in to obey
her, Jack stood still and pondered. There was
a difference. Sara would be permitted to make
any marriage she pleased - even with a clerk
in his father's office; whereas her brother, who
ought to have been the principal However,
to do him justice, there was no grudge in Jack's
heart. He scorned to be envious of his sister.
"Sara will have it all her own way," he said to
himself a little ruefully, as he lighted his candle
and went up the great staircase; and then it
occurred to him to wonder what she would
do about Pamela. Already he felt himself
superseded. It was his to take the clerk's
income and subside into inferiority, and Sara
was to be the Queen of Brownlows
she had always been.

CHAPTER XXVII.

SARA'S OWN AFFAIRS.

be accident, or good fortune, or something perfectly fortuitous; but yet withal the sense remained that he and no other had been chosen for this privilege, and that it could not be for nothing. He was modest and he had good sense, more than could have been expected from his age and circumstances; but yet every thing conspired to make him forget these sober qualities. He had not permitted himself so much as to think at his first appearance that Miss Brownlow, too, was a young human creature like himself. He had said to himself, on the contrary, that she was of a different species, that she was as much out of his reach as the moon or the stars, and that, if he suffered any folly to get into his head, of course he would as indeed have to suffer for it. But the folly had got into his head, and he had not suffered. He had been left with her, and she had talked to him, and made every thing very sweet to his soul. She had dropped the magic drop into his cup, which makes the mildest draught intoxicating, and the poor young fellow had felt the subtle charm stealing over him, and had gone on bewildered, justifying himself by the tacit encouragement given him, and not knowing what to think or what to do. He knew that between her and him there was a gulf fixed. He knew that of all men in the world he was the last to conceive any hopes in which such a brilliant little princess as Sara could be involved. It was doubly and trebly out of the question. He was not only a poor clerk, but he was a poor clerk with a family to support. It was all mere madness and irredeemable folly; but still Mr. Brownlow took him out to his house, and still he saw, and was led into intimate companionship with his master's daughter. And what could it mean? or how could it end? Powys fell into such a maze at last that he went and came unconsciously in a kind of insanity. Something must come of it one of these days. Something; -a volcanic eruption and wild blazing up of earth and heaven — a sudden plunge into madness or into darkness. It was strange, very strange to him, to think what Mr. Brownlow could mean by it; he was very kind to him almost paternal - and yet he was exposing him to this trial, which he could neither fly from nor resist. Thus poor Powys pondered to himself many a time, while, with a beating heart, he went along the road to Brownlows. He could have delivered himself, no doubt, if he would, but he did not want to deliver himself. He had let all go in a kind of desperation. It must end, no doubt, in some dreadful sudden downfall of all his hopes. But indeed he had no hopes; he knew it was madness; yet it was a madness he was permitted, even encouraged in; and he gave himself up to it, and let himself float down the stream, and said to himself that he would shut his eyes, and take what happiness he could get in the present moment, and shut out all thoughts of the future. This he was doing with a kind of thrill of prodigal delight, selling his birthright for a mess of pottage, giving

SARA'S affairs were perhaps not so interesting, as indeed they were far from being so advanced, as those of Jack; but still all this time they were making progress. It was not without cause that the image of Powys stole across her mental vision when Jack warned her to look at the beam in her own eye. There could be little doubt that Mr. Brownlow had encouraged Powys. He had asked him to come generally, and he had added to this many special invitations, and sometimes indeed, when Jack was not there, had given the young man a seat in the dog-cart, and brought him out. All this was very confusing, not to Sara, who, as she thought, saw into the motives of her father's conduct, and knew how it was, but to the clerk in Mr. Brownlow's office, who felt himself thus singled out, and could not but perceive that no one else had the same privilege. It filled him with many wondering and even bewildered thoughts. Perhaps at the beginning it did not strike him so much, semi-republican as he was; but he was quick-witted, and when he looked about him, and saw that his neighbours did not get the same advantages, the young Canadian felt that there must be something in it. He was taken in, as it were, to Mr. Brownlow's heart and home, and that not without a purpose, as was told him by the angry lines in Jack's forehead. He was taken in and admitted into the habits of intimacy, and had Sara, as it were, given over to him; and what did it mean? for that it must mean something he could not fail to see.

Thus young Powys's position was very different from that of Jack. Jack had been led into his scrape unwittingly, having meant nothing. But it would have been impossible for Powys to act in the same way. To him unconsciousness was out of the question. He might make it clear to himself, in a dazzled self-conscious way, that his own excellence could have nothing to do with it; that it must

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